Monday, March 10, 2008

The Hospital

While it is not a dream, I feel the need to write a bit about this. As of last Friday, my dad has been in the hospital. He had such a tough night before my mother took him, that he told her he felt like he was going to pass away. He was delirious, dehydrated, and he had collapsed a couple times. One of the times, he had fallen on Kahlua.

When my dad arrived at the hospital, he was stuck in the hallway of the ER until about 4pm. It was a tough day for this all to happen, as I had a rib out that needed fixing and I had a massage appointment at 4:00. After that, I had to get to my accountant to give him my LLC files for the year. As I wrapped that up, Jean, myself and Juliet all went to the hospital to see my dad. He was in great spirits in his room, but sounded horrible. We stayed until my mom arrived and then we all chatted a bit, before Juliet and I had to get going.

After we left, we went to the Pauly Shore comedy show at the Orleans. As a treat, Pauly's dad (Sammy Shore) opened the show. It was a set based solely on his age of 81, and how Vegas used to be. He was a dead ringer for Doug Masters, and he spoke about Vegas like my dad does. As the great set wrapped up, Sammy got very serious and began speaking about life and what it's meant to him. he also closed with a song called "When I'm young again". It was touching, and it really made me think about my life, mortality and how my dad has enjoyed his life.

The next day, I was watching the Rebel game before I headed on over. As the Rebels were down, I said "Do it for my dad", and sure enough they did. The point deficit dropped and the rebels magically took the lead. After the game was over, I went to the hospital to tell my dad all about it. As sick as he was, he was so happy to hear all about it. We waited until the 5 o clock newss was on so that he could see the highlights. After that and talking for a bit more, I went to Ivo's to get some food. After a nice meal, I headed back quickly and came into the dark room where my dad was sleeping. He was about to wake up, but I told him to keep resting. He fell back asleep promptly, and I curled up on the little couch and took a nap myself. When we woke up around 8, he told me to get on home, and that he really appreciated me being there for him throughout the day. It made it all go by fast for him.

As of today, he is recovering nicely. He was diagnosed with the Flu (type B), and I realized that his age of 75, the smallest cog in the wheel can be deadly serious. I've never taken a day with my day for granted, but realizing that his mortality is so frail at his age, I know that every day he is around us is truly a blessing. However, nobody is stringer than my dad, so I know that another 20 years might not be out of the question! :)

The Wedding Day

As always, this is a dream that was all over the place. let's start with the Juliet conflict. I was looking through a photo album and I saw a pic of her snowboarding way before we were together. Stumped, I asked Jean if he knew she had snowboarded in the past. His reply was "Of course...she went with her ex-boyfriend." As I turned the page, I saw some guy with Juliet in his arms.

After almost 8 years together, I was stunned that I had never known. I approached Juliet later and asked her why she had told me previously that she'd never snowboarded. It made my gift of a snowboard to her feel a lot less special. She laughed and said not to worry. I then asked what else she was covering up, and she said nothing. It was at this point that I pulled out the picture of her and the guy. She began to giggle and she told me that there was a lot more than I didn't know about. I was shocked, so I asked her what else. She calmly said "I've had sex with 3 other guys". I went from 0 to pissed in .0001 seconds and I was instantly hurt. She asked what the big deal was, and I said it wouldn't have been a big deal if she'd have just been upfront from the get-go.

Moving on with the dream, I ended up in some kitchen with Juliet, Dee and Shirley. Apparently Dave had decided to get married, and they wanted Juliet to plan it. Dee and Shirley kept talking about how beautiful our wedding was, and how they hope Dave's will be just as nice. Juliet of course was not going to let them down, and she assured them. I somehow asked what gift he'd be getting, and Shirley looked at me teary eyed and said that he'd be getting the most important gift ever, as the perfect gift on the perfect day will be the most meaningful gift you can ever give a person.

After chatting a bit more, I was told I was the best man. After some smiles, I had to ask the million dollar question: "Who is he marrying anyway?". After being told it was Bri, I felt an instant sadness. The talk then turned into what a sad day it would be, but I kept telling everyone that we had to support his decision. Shirley began to cry, but agreed 100%. As Dee began to sob a bit, I woke up.

Another dream i had 2 days ago involved Juliet wanting to leave me to mover to China for the year. Of course I was ready to move along with her, but she kept telling me I'd need to stay here. She was covered in her own tears and couldn't tell me why, but for some reason she insisted. We were on the playground at Thurman white as we said our final goodbye for the year.

After we parted ways, I walked over to the tennis courts, but there was a swamp area I had to cross. Being as the water was croc infested, I stood next to a large tree until there was a clear pathway, and I jumped across, swimming to the other side. I made it onto the court and I walked to court 2. As I did that, Annie, Antonella and some other girl walked up and were saying that they were glad I was back out there. We were going to play tennis, and they asked if I had brought the tennis balls. I realized I hadn't, so I was going to cross the swamp to get them in my locker, but the crocs were sitting there staring at me this time. I was confused and apparently my first instinct was to wake up.

Oddly enough when I woke up and told Juliet about the dream, she had a dream that same night that I was coming back from Costa Rica, and I didn't want to see her. The odd thing is that we've never been happier together! Sometimes these anxiety dreams can come at the oddest times.